Time.

"To act justly and to
 love mercy and to
walk humbly with your God."

Doesn't it seem like there's constantly a rush?

I am always rushing.

To finish my homework five minutes before it's due.
To get to breakfast on time if at all.
To get a job to start paying off school.
To begin a plan for my future.
To meet someone so I can supposedly start the future.
To not be a freshman, or a college student, or lost.

Yikes.

It seems like I'm always heading there as to not be here. "There" meaning any green grass that I think will taste better than what I have now. And what I don't understand about all that is I have a very wonderful "now."

I am constantly trying to figure out how to balance on this tight-rope timeline, living full speed ahead or living as one of the moment people, who are always having fun because they know how to enjoy each experienced piece of time.

I don't know how to do either.

Ideally, I would be soaking up each conversation, lecture, and train ride like a sponge. Remembering every little piece of life and smiling at each moment.
..This is not reality.

I don't actually think anyone lives like that. That's not what life is like. It's appreciating beauty in normalcy, and living greatly wherever that may be.

So I'm thinking I can make some adjustments to approach this.

Like spending less time on netflix. Having more intentional conversations with more people, and caring more. Catching up with people. Getting up smiling after I fall down the stairs. Letting little things go. Being more fun to be around. Losing the pride/egocentrism. Reading more books! Not being so selective in what I think is funny... Saying hello.

It's healthier to laugh more.

Knowing when to reach out and when to ask for help. Knowing when to stay silent and when to let your thoughts be spoken. When to let things slide and when to address them head-on.

And praying. Always.


Because I'm not sure of the finish to all this, here' s a sort of a synopsis. It's going to be okay. We got this. And this day can be wonderfully awesome even if nothing ground-breaking seems to show up.

The sun still came up outside my window this morning.

See? We already began with the most fantastic intro.