I am overwhelmed with joy. Therefore, I write again.

I just stalked my fb timeline in 2009.

I came across more than 155 messages from people that I knew, that year.

Blessed.

Ilana's friend Kailey say "Blessings" all the time when she sees people she knows. Her very own version of goodbye. I've always thought it was pretty cute, but I have not quite noticed the word "blessed", or "blessings" (in the case of wishing them upon someone), the same way as I do in this moment.

Beautiful life.


I apologize if you are a person who is suffering. I, too, have had days when I feel like I'm carrying some problems of the world on my shoulders. We are bent over with sorrow for those who ache, sometimes for ourselves, and simply wonder,

"Why, Lord? Why?"

That happens. Sometimes for days, sometimes for seasons.


I spoke with my philosophy professor about the Problem of Evil last semester. I thought, what if they are right? What if this problem of evil is just too great for us? It can't be defeated until Christ comes back, and the thought of even one more suffering innocent is just too much to handle.

And she said,

Things that are evil are evil because they are a contrast, and a depletion of true beauty that does exist. It's because they are not the way things are supposed to be. The true problem would be if they became normal, and if we were not upset about them.

Hello, tangent.

Point:

Suffering is hard. We worry about relationships, starvation, homework, jobs, natural disasters, family issues, sickness, and pain.

BUT

We hate them because they are unlike what God intended ours lives to be like. Harmonious and beautiful, filled with joy and thankfulness for the love he bestows upon us.

..Amen?


I can't list the names of every wonderful person that has impacted by life. I just can't. They would fill this page and then I would surely leave someone out and would become worried about that.

So instead I'll just say thank you.

To those who have shined so brightly in a world that can be so dark.

To those who have loved when they aren't loved in return. For those who are patient, giddy, strong, brave, smart, and trusting.

For those who have given something up, and have taken hits.

For those who are actively pursuing Christ, bringing honor to him in whatever they do.
Some of you have done that without even knowing.


He is so good. And this God that we know, this beautiful and benevolent, yet powerful God,

will reign forever.

I am so, so grateful that he sent beauty, like flowers,

and beauty, like you.

To me.





He shows himself through our love.

Goodnight,

dream of beautiful things.